hate myself

I really hate myself a lot. why I so stupid? just like a fool. I still immature. I hate myself unable to take care , hate myself being stubborn , hate myself being rigid , hate myself unable to think at the correct side , hate myself not very thoughtful , hate myself making my mum cry bitterly , hate myself being the greater daughter in the world , hate myself being lazy , hate myself not rich enough to give my mother a good life but a miserable life. hate! fucking hate myself. why am I born in this world so uselessly not capable doing this or that. I thought when second attempt will be successful , in the end , it still remind the same the same. born to think of this thing only.