Emo

Oh gosh! I'm feeling devastating. I never felt that before. This made me felt hurt and i cannot stand up and tell myself "I can do it!" I was trying very hard to be the one that everyone like about me but i guess i fail it again. I don't know why i didn't do anything wrong to a person that the person hate me after hearing what other parties had said to them. Don't you felt that the person you hate was a victim itself and was sentenced to death when you agree whatever other parties had told you?
I felt extremely despair. I'm so emo right now. I had dropped into the trap that no one can save me. Is me myself , have to face it. I felt I'm not the me that i use to be. I'm a cheering person but i cannot cheered other people. I always lived in a happy go lucky days but now there is no luck for me to go happy anymore.
My mouth always destroy everything i had. My mouth = kill others. I'm not capable to really make you smile. Problem , trouble still there. Why am i so pessimistic? When i was in secondary school , there is a girl i dislike about because of her words that she said , hurting. I very regretted what i had done in the past , accuse others. Now when i though of it , is mainly my fault , because i believe what others told me and put her to death. She is always my best friend. Especially , thanks to a wicked friend i had. He badly influenced me.
Just tell me how am i going to shut my mouth.

Will i take the pains when i grow up?