I don't wanna say goodbye to 19

My school is in ITE simei. The past few days or months i spent my days taking train from lakeside to simei. Pretty far isn't it? I also think so BUT i had no choice. Now , is going to end the first year in this course. I had a lot of things to share with you but i going to type it in consequently manner.
First , the first time step into ITE the feeling was hatred. "I HATE IT!" I did swear before that i don't wanna make friend and not only me , alone , hates ITE but everyone because it symbolize "IN THE END" After spending prolong days in ITE , i received GREAT care and concern from our teachers. No words to describe the significant teacher that taught us. Exaggerate. However , i did make some friends. I loves to join Quebec , Amelia , Jing ping , Yah Yah , Siti and Daniel and Joel. They always lift up my lonely days :) I always disturb jing ping. HAHAHA! He is a very funny guy who LOVES TO STROKE HIS EYE BROW HAIR. Oops i think he gonna kill me if he saw this O.O
Just now i and ameila was having fun together. We got so high. I started it by shouting "ah ban" (Malay language as "brother") or "ah dead"(Tamil language as "brother") and Amelia cannot control her hyper , she do the same as me too. I shouted at the top of my lungs and waved frantically at the person who responded to my calling. Furthermore , we sneaked out and went to buy some sweets due to the dryness of our throat during Miss Fong lesson. We were locked outside the lecture room and were mad about it. So , we started to be the DJ in the club by knocking the door with remedy AND do some remix as well. Include lion dance remedy.. LOL.. I guess the whole class laugh out loud. In contrast , Miss Fong was boiling. She opened the door and gave us a bad ticking off and locked us for another 5 minutes. -.- lame
she said "Please knocked formally! If not next time i don't allow you guys to go in!" And she slammed the door. Her formally mean knock 3 times at one go and wait patiently. -.-
Both of us kept on laughing...
Second , my grades isn't that good to go to good polytechnic but i strive for it to go:) I was lost in the path of my life journey. I am hesitating which option had the better path for me.
A) i stayed in ITE , i will be spending another 2 years and get a certificate.
B)Go Republic polytechnic , year one
C) Retake my other poor grades.
D) Try to appeal for other polytechnic.
If you are me , which path will you choose.. I need some good responses or comments or maybe advices.. I'm trapped.
Lastly , I gonna be 20 soon , i hate 20 with the "2" digit in front which i hate it so much. I'm old.. I still wanna party like a 18 young girl. Human is hilarious. Once you got into the 18 , you wished to be older. Now you are older , you wished to be younger..